A Lesson In Self-Control...

Well, month 2 of waiting is over and done. As spring is getting closer, it seems the days are going by a little faster. The waiting hasn't seemed so unbearable this month. Since the first of April, I have been checking the AWAA website to check on the status of the Ethiopian referrals. I checked on the 1st of April, and then told myself I would not obsess about it, and I would wait to check back for at least a week. That lasted a couple days until I reasoned with myself that maybe on the 3rd (since that was a Friday) they would have posted new referrals for the end of the week. There was nothing there so I told myself that I would wait until the following Friday to check again, knowing that the days will certainly drag by if I keep checking every day. That lasted until Monday when I had the thought that it was the beginning of the week and they might have new information. There was no new info. Today, being the 7th, I thought, "Well, there has been a full week now in the month of April, so there might be something new." I sat at the table checking my facebook trying to forget about the fact that I was thinking I should check the AWAA website. I wrestled back and forth and then thought "What will it hurt?".

So I checked...and there on the front page of new information was congratulations to the families that have received referrals for Ethiopia! So I quickly scanned the list and there have been 14 referrals with this new batch. That includes 6 for infants. I quickly tried to figure out which of the families from our yahoo chat group would have received referrals (they don't post names, only age and sex of baby and the DTE's they were matched with), so we could think about where we are in line (even though we know nothing for sure and it's really just guessing). Anyway, we are excited about these new referrals and are hoping for even more the rest of the month.

What I have learned from the last week is...not only am I learning a lesson in patience through this whole process (which I am not happy about, still), I apparently am also learning how little self-control I have. Eating well and healthy (most of the time:))...check, getting up at 4:30 in the morning to go to gym...check, refusing to eat the donuts that my co-workers bring in...check. Not checking the AWAA website everyday...not so much. Leave it to a little baby to undo everthing...